I know I’ve been way too quiet. I haven’t written much, actually next to nothing for the series in 2015, and for that I do apologize. You see, the muse and I haven’t been getting along so well for the past year or so. In frustration and the resultant dip in confidence in my abilities, I put it down for a while. Once that happened, with every day I didn’t write, it became easier and easier to not do it at all.
Don’t know which one of us, the muse or me, it is that has the issues, but I do know the conflict between us has been going on far too long. Still love the Harts immensely. My mind is filled to bursting with ideas and story lines, but increasingly, they don’t make it much farther than the inside of my forehead. It didn’t used to be that way. I’m thinking I may have to leave the muse behind and strike out on my own. After all, I tend to be pretty independent in most other aspects of my life. Why not with the writing life, too?
In my hiatus; however, I have been reading up on and researching how to be a more efficient writer, more motivated, more creative, more organized. Up to now, I’ve been kind of flying by my coattails, dabbling in reading about writing here and there, picking up tips and technique as I went along. That served for a while, but the more I wrote, the more I felt the need to seek the advice and counseling of the professionally published.
I have also been using the time away to reread some of the older stories in the series to check for consistency and integrity in the story line. I need to make a”bible” to keep track of what’s been going on with whom; this series has grown in leaps and bounds from the one little story I thought I would “try my hand at” way back when, The Queen of Harts and a Diamond. There have been moments when even the “find” feature of the word processing program was no help to me when I needed to make sure things lined up. That meant trolling and digging through the stories to find what I needed. Writing this, I’m beginning to believe the lack of concrete, visible and deliberate organization might have become a major inhibitor for me, too.
…not to mention my tendency to spend too long trying to perfect a section instead of getting the writing done first. The books say I shouldn’t edit as I go, but I’ll tell you, old habits die real hard.
In backtracking through the stories, especially some of the older ones, I found the errors in grammar, punctuation, word omissions/ transpositions, the style formatting that didn’t transfer when I changed website platforms, appalling. Lots of editing and revising to be done for sure. I also noticed a couple of gaps that need filling- possible new stories for the childhood section. All of that will be writing, a way to keep my fingers and my mind moving, and hopefully get me back on track.
Anyway, I missed the goal I set for myself to have the next section of the prom story completed and up by New Year’s Day. I tried, but….
No excuses, I procrastinated and didn’t get where I said I would be. I hate when I’m not honest and forthright with myself.
It is in progress, however. I did manage to move the story forward, but not as complete as I wanted it to be to post. I won’t post it until it’s at that point, which would be finished.
In the meantime, I just wanted to say “hello”, to declare that I’m still here and writing- such as it is, and to wish everyone a happy, healthy, fulfilling New Year.
Onward to 2016!!