I know it has been a very long time since I have posted anything here. There are way too many things going on in my mind. Not enough stimulating happening in my life. Too many roadblocks that I let get in the way of my writing. Too many inner voices I allow to coerce me into put the writing aside “just for tonight”. Those whispers that say I’m not ready to write when my fingers actually try to execute said action.
“Let it marinate just a little longer…”
“Wait until you’re at your desk… have that new laptop… not on your tablet… can write it down first….”
And that really vicious one who hisses, “Who wants to read your stuff anyway?”
That Inner critic can be brutal, I’m telling you, especially to a chronic procrastinator like me.
But I do know who I am underneath that label and what my capabilities are, so I push on.
I really wish I could write faster, publish more quickly, more regularly, like I used to be able to do. There really is a lot going on in my head. All those brilliant scenes that write themselves in the shower, the bathtub, after I turn the light out way after I should have since I have to go work in the morning, assure me that all is not lost, just erratic and misplaced at times. And I could do with a few more hours in my days.
At this point, I probably need to begin an actual “bible” to keep track of the series; it’s always been extremely important to keep characters genuine and details in line when I’m writing, so it behooves me to be especially careful when it comes to the Harts. Giving them a daughter, for me, was a huge deviation in itself. Making sure it all stays believable has become quite the job.
But then that “bible” would be an huge undertaking in itself. I should have been doing that all along, but who knew one story would grow into this?
The being more regular part- that’s strictly on me. It’s something I’ve vowed to work on this year- establishing a writing schedule that I adhere to despite the irritations and interruptions that I have heretofore allowed to become obstacles to progress.
I won’t bore anyone with details of that plan. Like J.J., I’m one who believes in not telegraphing her moves. Just please understand that I’m working on closing the gaps between sections in this series, and that I do so much cherish and appreciate your hanging in there with me and sending me your words of encouragement.